The Caretaker: An Empty Bliss Beyond This World
My new years eve soundtrack.
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Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Sunday, January 1, 2012
The End & The Beginning
2011 bids farewell, as 2012 begins a new
I found this quotation while processing one of piles.
Orson Wells: "I believe a work is good to the degree that it expresses the artist who created it." (Also, attributed to François Truffaut.)
Whether a visual artist, filmmaker, writer or tattoo artist, I'd tend to agree with the statement. On that basis, I wonder how all my work would measure up?
Today marks the first day of the year. How did I spend it?
I simply rested, watched movies and took Meta out to play. These days are rare, but necessary to balance out the days that are stressful during school. I reflected on how I spent the previous evening. Still ruminating on a troublesome feeling in my gut. Never a good sign. Do I really want to start off the year with an old mistake? Well, a couple weeks old... I'm gonna say no.
What did I dream of last night? I dreamed of designing a space/home together with a partner. One who can help realize my ideas. A long liminal entrance hall. Step up with space for shoes below, level with the ground. Clean lines and a nice diffused light of frosted glass. Dark wood step and border.
Maybe Marcus was just a holiday treat. Cute, but not really developed and mature enough to be the man who will build things with me. I definitely could have handled things better from the beginning, but taking chances for the sake of love is part of the deal. Not sure how this will end. Maybe with a final text. Days could pass or even too many minutes. Its all the same in text time. Then a possible street sighting, though I don't think we tend to be out at the same times. I'd like to do it better, but I may just need to let it go without making too much of it. Another bump on the head. For now, just the relief of having passed my first year comprehensives will carry me through the next days. Not a minor accomplishment!
What I'd like to do in 2012:
1. Go back to Beijing (April break)
2. Visit London (Summer break)
3. Meet someone suitable for starting "adult life"
4. Meditate daily
5. Hone in on my intuition
6. Start the process of actualization
7. Recover faster
2011 was about clearing dead space and getting back into the saddle in terms of finding love...baby steps. Though tattoo artist is more variety for the love resume, its not a story with much substance.
Onward and Upward!
Whether a visual artist, filmmaker, writer or tattoo artist, I'd tend to agree with the statement. On that basis, I wonder how all my work would measure up?
Today marks the first day of the year. How did I spend it?
I simply rested, watched movies and took Meta out to play. These days are rare, but necessary to balance out the days that are stressful during school. I reflected on how I spent the previous evening. Still ruminating on a troublesome feeling in my gut. Never a good sign. Do I really want to start off the year with an old mistake? Well, a couple weeks old... I'm gonna say no.
What did I dream of last night? I dreamed of designing a space/home together with a partner. One who can help realize my ideas. A long liminal entrance hall. Step up with space for shoes below, level with the ground. Clean lines and a nice diffused light of frosted glass. Dark wood step and border.
Maybe Marcus was just a holiday treat. Cute, but not really developed and mature enough to be the man who will build things with me. I definitely could have handled things better from the beginning, but taking chances for the sake of love is part of the deal. Not sure how this will end. Maybe with a final text. Days could pass or even too many minutes. Its all the same in text time. Then a possible street sighting, though I don't think we tend to be out at the same times. I'd like to do it better, but I may just need to let it go without making too much of it. Another bump on the head. For now, just the relief of having passed my first year comprehensives will carry me through the next days. Not a minor accomplishment!
What I'd like to do in 2012:
1. Go back to Beijing (April break)
2. Visit London (Summer break)
3. Meet someone suitable for starting "adult life"
4. Meditate daily
5. Hone in on my intuition
6. Start the process of actualization
7. Recover faster
2011 was about clearing dead space and getting back into the saddle in terms of finding love...baby steps. Though tattoo artist is more variety for the love resume, its not a story with much substance.
Onward and Upward!
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
A Night in K-town
A Night in K-town:
Civilized dinner at Hangawi
12 E 32nd St; 212) 213-0077
then fried chicken for dessert: )
South side of the street, look for flag flying outside that reads "Restaurant Forte."
Take elevator or stairs to second floor...
Restaurant Forte Baden Baden
28 West 32nd Street, second floor; Koreatown; (212) 714-2266.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
November 30, 2010
This is the one year mark of my dear friend Josh Levine's passing. It was sudden and we were robbed. He was a friend that embodied love and kindness. He followed his dreams and lived life with integrity and genuine care for the people he loved. We shared the love of photography, food and family. We shared friends and holidays and plans for future projects. He always welcomed me with my dog into his home. Josh even spent time throwing sticks for Meta while he worked in the garden. Josh cooked for us, picked us up at the train station in his convertible, played great music for us, hosted us for long weekends, made us all feel at home and always made us feel loved when we had to say good-bye. I am so very grateful for his love and light and the impression he has left in my life. He was truly an angel among men. I will always remember him as I pursuit my dreams and bring them to life.
Josh, you are in my heart. You have effected many people in this world and live on through your inspirations, your family and your friends.
Josh, you are in my heart. You have effected many people in this world and live on through your inspirations, your family and your friends.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
A Love Calculator
I'm in the middle of some craziness, but will be writing more over break. Until then, here is a funny site I found while doing some research.
Ask Dr. Love about your chances!
http://www.lovecalculator.com/
Ask Dr. Love about your chances!
http://www.lovecalculator.com/
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