Sensing Trouble

I'm pretty sure I know from the first two and now three dates, what would be problematic going forward. I fall easily. I know this from reviewing all my journal entries from previous relationships. I actually love falling in love. Its a fact. I wonder if I could fall in love with a hobo. Its entirely possible, scary, but possible. AND I know that from the beginning I always sense what will be the issue that could and then eventually does arise if the relationship continues.

Without going back in history, I will just say that with Mono, the fear I have is that I could be lonely in a relationship with him. Its actually the worst feeling in the world. I say that, but I will also say that I really like many things about him, which is setting off alarms inside my stomach and making me do weird preemptive things...I've accepted a second date with OK#four, as well as, hung out with a boy who is visiting from New Zealand and not a romantic interest for me. I also actively responded to a guy who had messaged weeks ago and will be OK#five. OK#five suggested meeting for a "cuppa" to see if we could have fun together (yikes!).


SO WHY am I acting crazy. I actually think Mono could be a 98% man-list match. Terrifying! The only thing I can say is that I am willing to see this through, even with some concerns. His skill set and background make for the best storybook romance with the character I am developing into, but something isn't sitting right. We got physical, but I did not let it go too far. Though I wasn't able to articulate why I wanted to take things slow in the moment, mission was accomplished. He protested a little, but I said I still wanted to see him naked. A request to which he obliged. Then well, I stayed over and emotionally became vulnerable. This sudden vulnerability was very hard for me. I should have just left it alone and let him contact me first, but I had to message first. He's not much of a texter, so he kinda left me cold. Last text, was him saying he might be coming down with the flu and he would let me know...I had invited him over to watch some Wong Kar Wai, who I love, but he apparently thinks he would hate!? Yeah, the communication has been weird.

More on Mono:
He lives above his father's restaurant. He has some issues with his father, which I think I may understand. Though as an artist, its hard to turn down free rent. He is in a phase of upgrading and modifying his life. He likes things paramilitary. He experiments with ice cubes, looking to create the perfect clear cube. Yes, there is a metaphor here. I love the imperfections and the lines and air that the impurities create. He is trying to create a clear piece of ice. OK, enough about him for now.

Advise on dating or men in general are welcome. I am trying to learn as I go.

Learning To Cook For One

Quinoa and Kale

In hopes of cooking in more and finding easy dishes to make for one, I've dedicated this entry to my lunch today. Quinoa made with vegetable stock with Kale in olive oil and a little low sodium soy with tumeric and fennel.

Foeniculum vulgare–Fennel

Properties: carminative, diuretic, stimulant, antispasmodic, anti-inflammatory, aromatic, expectorant, aperitif, antiseptic, depurative, emmenagogue, laxative, orexigenic, splenic, vermifuge, anti-microbial, tonic, calmative, stomachic, bechyic, digestive, vaso-motorial, cardiac, galactagogue and diuretic.

Energetics: pungent, warm, dry, sweet 

Meridians/Organs affected: spleen, stomach, liver, kidney

Plus

Tumeric, a couple reasons why this is special:

Is a natural painkiller and cox-2 inhibitor.

Is a natural liver detoxifier.

Mono for monosaccharide

We met on a Thursday early evening at Hotel Delmano. He arrived a bit early, so he was seated and waiting for me. He sat on the outside, reserving the banquette seating for me, which was a good sign. Mono is an Aries. He is son to an Austrian artist mother and MD father. His mother has passed, but his father is around, but travels frequently. They literally decided to name their only son Mono (two long O's) for monosaccharide. Their one and only lille socker bit. As fate would have it, we could have met in art school in the early 2000s, but I chose to head toward Boston rather than California. Instead he had an unrealized teacher crush on an art historian there, while I lived the dream in Boston seducing and then dating Bill. Mono seemed to like that. He seems to be pretty liberal in terms of sexual mores, which is another good sign. Two for two.
Other bonuses:
1) I love elderflower syrup and he has literally picked elderflower blossoms and made homemade syrup. Apparently, they grow wild on the side of the road in Austria.
 2) I have been really getting into bubbly water and was talking about those soda makers and apparently, Austria is known for them and has been making seltzers at home forever! Imagine those antique soda makers for a moment, then think Austria. For some reason this makes me like him more.
3) He is also well versed in the culinary arts.
4) He has a thing with plants. A wild vine grows in his apartment. (awesome!)
5) He was sweet and gentlemanly and has asked me for another date to see a film.
 And he has great taste in films.

To be continued...

This is our Chinese Astrological outlook; )
Love Match: Rabbit and Sheep

Re-discovering Susan Miller

I used to be an astrology junkie. Susan Miller was the woman I most trusted in those days. Occasionally, when I am at a crossroad, I will check in and look for some signals.

My September 2011 Horoscope reads:

Romantically, with Mar entering Leo, you will have seven weeks of fun ahead, and of course, considering life this month, you could use that! In this case, single Aries will have an edge over the ones who are attached. I say that with a qualification, for Mars will certainly help single Aries to find new love - this is one of the best aspects you can have to help you, aside from Jupiter in Aries (which you had earlier, from September 9, 2010 to June, 4, 2011). You have every reason to be optimistic about having your chance to meet someone special now. You will have from September 18 to November 18.

-From the Aries monthly forecast