The Caretaker: An Empty Bliss Beyond This World
My new years eve soundtrack.
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Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Sunday, January 1, 2012
The End & The Beginning
2011 bids farewell, as 2012 begins a new
I found this quotation while processing one of piles.
Orson Wells: "I believe a work is good to the degree that it expresses the artist who created it." (Also, attributed to François Truffaut.)
Whether a visual artist, filmmaker, writer or tattoo artist, I'd tend to agree with the statement. On that basis, I wonder how all my work would measure up?
Today marks the first day of the year. How did I spend it?
I simply rested, watched movies and took Meta out to play. These days are rare, but necessary to balance out the days that are stressful during school. I reflected on how I spent the previous evening. Still ruminating on a troublesome feeling in my gut. Never a good sign. Do I really want to start off the year with an old mistake? Well, a couple weeks old... I'm gonna say no.
What did I dream of last night? I dreamed of designing a space/home together with a partner. One who can help realize my ideas. A long liminal entrance hall. Step up with space for shoes below, level with the ground. Clean lines and a nice diffused light of frosted glass. Dark wood step and border.
Maybe Marcus was just a holiday treat. Cute, but not really developed and mature enough to be the man who will build things with me. I definitely could have handled things better from the beginning, but taking chances for the sake of love is part of the deal. Not sure how this will end. Maybe with a final text. Days could pass or even too many minutes. Its all the same in text time. Then a possible street sighting, though I don't think we tend to be out at the same times. I'd like to do it better, but I may just need to let it go without making too much of it. Another bump on the head. For now, just the relief of having passed my first year comprehensives will carry me through the next days. Not a minor accomplishment!
What I'd like to do in 2012:
1. Go back to Beijing (April break)
2. Visit London (Summer break)
3. Meet someone suitable for starting "adult life"
4. Meditate daily
5. Hone in on my intuition
6. Start the process of actualization
7. Recover faster
2011 was about clearing dead space and getting back into the saddle in terms of finding love...baby steps. Though tattoo artist is more variety for the love resume, its not a story with much substance.
Onward and Upward!
Whether a visual artist, filmmaker, writer or tattoo artist, I'd tend to agree with the statement. On that basis, I wonder how all my work would measure up?
Today marks the first day of the year. How did I spend it?
I simply rested, watched movies and took Meta out to play. These days are rare, but necessary to balance out the days that are stressful during school. I reflected on how I spent the previous evening. Still ruminating on a troublesome feeling in my gut. Never a good sign. Do I really want to start off the year with an old mistake? Well, a couple weeks old... I'm gonna say no.
What did I dream of last night? I dreamed of designing a space/home together with a partner. One who can help realize my ideas. A long liminal entrance hall. Step up with space for shoes below, level with the ground. Clean lines and a nice diffused light of frosted glass. Dark wood step and border.
Maybe Marcus was just a holiday treat. Cute, but not really developed and mature enough to be the man who will build things with me. I definitely could have handled things better from the beginning, but taking chances for the sake of love is part of the deal. Not sure how this will end. Maybe with a final text. Days could pass or even too many minutes. Its all the same in text time. Then a possible street sighting, though I don't think we tend to be out at the same times. I'd like to do it better, but I may just need to let it go without making too much of it. Another bump on the head. For now, just the relief of having passed my first year comprehensives will carry me through the next days. Not a minor accomplishment!
What I'd like to do in 2012:
1. Go back to Beijing (April break)
2. Visit London (Summer break)
3. Meet someone suitable for starting "adult life"
4. Meditate daily
5. Hone in on my intuition
6. Start the process of actualization
7. Recover faster
2011 was about clearing dead space and getting back into the saddle in terms of finding love...baby steps. Though tattoo artist is more variety for the love resume, its not a story with much substance.
Onward and Upward!
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